You're in: there....

I'm tired of talking about it, stressing about it.... dreaming about it.

You're in:

- my sleep.

- my scrapbooks.

- my picture frames that had kept you safely packed away until last week.

- my phone; texting me at the most inopportune times.

- my 'pictures' files.

- my inbox... dozens of you.

- my memories....

- my past.

- my future?

... try as I might, you wont let me kill these memories of you.. or of us.

or is it me? Do i not let myself forget about you or us? Maybe I don't want to...

I don't even know what to do with them {these memories} ....

... wouldn't it be scary if we always got what we want?

Summertime...

Aww summer is well under way. 

My mom is coming to visit on Friday... she has some meetings this weekend in Jacksonville and so she will be bunking up at my half packed apartment. I'm not sure what the itinerary is for the weekend but i'm sure it will be a good visit. 

Monday (after work) my mister and I are meeting his family up in Mountain View for 2 days, we rented a cabin outside of town and are planning on visiting some caves and just escaping for a few days.... I'm very excited to get out of the city for a couple days!! 

My birthday is Thursday... its creeping up quickly!! (is that an oxymoron?) 

Saturday we are having a Bday dinner at a local restaurant.... it will be great to have all of my friends in the same room!! ... and of course Birthday cake! Who doesn't love that!!!!??? 

L.D and I got to go see our future apartment yesterday... it looks nice but is quite a bit smaller than what I am used to! It will be beautiful and feel like home once we get all of our furniture and decorations in it. I am definitely ready to be  done with the move!! I suppose Lindsey and I should have rented a 2 bedroom from the beginning... we have had some interesting experiences with our past roommates... guess they have made for some good stories though! Ha! 

I will make a good effort to get pictures up of the next weeks events.... plus i am hoping to get a camera for my bday so i won't have any excuse!! 

Toothful Tuesdays....

* Its Tuesday, my one day off through the week... it's usually filled with banks and laundry and errands.... which reminds me, I need to go buy my mom a Birthday card and get it in the mail today.... So today not being different than any other Tuesday.. it started out with a dentist appointment this morning.... my gums are a little sore but I'm alive so that's a good sign.... went by my old work place and visited some old friends and then indulged in Burger King... sans Coke, which only seemed right considering I had just left the dentist chair where my tooth was drilled on for 45 minutes because of my love affair with said Coke... so instead I drank water. Yum? 

*Healing*

-My new tattoo is finally starting to itch which is a welcomed annoyance because it means the tattoo is one step closer to being completely healed... I'm very happy with the outcome and am also very ready for it to be healed so i can get back to tanning. Ahhh that would be a nice treat... suppose I should probably give it a few more days though. Argh.

*Indulgence*

-Finally took some of my hard earned money and bought myself a present for making a 4.0 GPA this semester in school... It was expensive and pointless, but i suppose that makes it even better... sometimes I just have to spend money... I feel like I work so much and if all i ever did with that money was pay bills and save it... i think i would go crazy. 

*Anxious*

- Went to Barnes & Noble this morning, figured it was about time to start studying for the exam that inadvertently holds my future within its non-existent hands... I need to make the appointment... suppose the money spent on above indulgence would have been better spent on the Praxis exam fees.... 'ehhhhh forget about it'

*Refreshment*

- Ive drank my weight in this stuff the past two days... and have been popping tums like breath mints... Yuck. 

*Moving*

- T-28 days until we have to be out of our apartment... that i have lived in for 2 years... bittersweet might have been a more appropriate caption... so until June 30th.... 

... this is what my apartment looks like, not too inviting. 

Well.... in honor of my day off (as mentioned earlier) I believe I will finish watching the sappy chick flick I just put in and possibly take a nap... 

* Happy Trails.