Meet Rosey!

Name: Rosey
Age: 4
Favorite food: Indoor cat formula (Purina), I also enjoy the occasional Fancy Feast salmon meal and Pounce moist Caribbean catch cat treats but I'm watching my figure so I try to not indulge too much....

- My favorite subject to read about is Geography.. I enjoy learning about all the places that exist outside my cute little house that I share with my mommy.

I REALLY enjoy napping... especially on soft blankets mom leaves out on the couch for me.. sometimes you just gotta stretch out and catch some ZZzzzzs!!!

My favorite blanket belongs to my mommy, it was a birthday gift from one of her friends but mom usually shares it with me... she knows its my favorite =-)

Sometimes mom will take naps with me, but she can be a cover hog... but i still love her.

I really like it when mom is on the computer, sometimes i can trick her into letting me curl up and rest my head in her hand...

Here's me and mom playing on the bed.. she likes to snap pictures when I'm not looking... she's tricky like that..

If mommy doesn't give me enough attention sometimes I have to demand it... but I don't think she minds too much ;-)

At night time I like to cuddle up with mom in bed... its always nice and warm and she keeps extra blankets at the end of the bed for me.. I love her a lot... and I'm pretty sure she loves me =-)

So this really is...

... goodbye.

It seems people, like seasons, seem to rotate in and out of my life constantly.
With the holidays gone and life returning to normal, I'm left with a feeling of uncertainty that I've become familiar with. I've always had a general idea of what my purpose in life is, I've just never known whether I would be doing those things alone or with someone I love.
... I think I've realized it doesn't really matter.

Explaining to someone that despite how much you love them, you love yourself more... and in loving yourself you've realized whats best is to no longer be with that person, is heartbreaking. Dealing with the selfish feeling you're left with after that conversation is excruciating. I'm refusing to play the pity card and feel the deep grieving I so badly want to feel because I'm afraid of what it would do to my logical thinking. Never in my life have I so desperately NOT wanted to feel so sure about something.

"And I'll miss you like you're dead
And find a way to grieve you
Cause I need to try and start again
And your ghost will have to leave, Like a child would his mother
Or a lover Who has to say goodbye"

"When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it." - Henry Ford

... I'm a horrible blogger. I'll admit that now. I dont do a great job at keeping up, time just doesnt allow it, i'm afraid. I'm the same way with planners and diaries/journals... I buy them with the best of intentions but time gets the best of me.

... I do however want to share some beautiful Arkansas Fall pictures. There are a lot of things about living in the 'Bible' belt South that can be frustrating at times, but the beautiful landscaping of this state is definitely not one of them.

So this is Goodbye// William Fitzsimmons

The thing never now, were you
You're gone and I won't see you anymore
You left my love on the run
And said that you were leaving

And you won't come home again

And I'll miss you like you're dead
But I never got to grieve you
Cause I saw you In the arms of someone else
So your phantom follows me Like a child would his mother
Or a lover who never said goodbye
It's only saying goodbye

And I cry myself to sleep
And you thought I was happy
I was lonely
Had nowhere to go
And I heard that you moved on
Found a brand new family
And changed your married name
And everything has changed

And I'll miss you like you're dead
And find a way to grieve you
Cause I need to try and start again
And your ghost will have to leave, Like a child would his mother
Or a lover Who has to say goodbye

It's always say goodbye

It's a joyous thing, really...

... I have successfully worked a shift without ANY lower back pain and without the help of any pain meds!!! No sharp pains, no nausea because of my back hurting so much, no need to sit down to make it through the day... NOTHING!! What a glorious feeling!! I just want to kiss and hug my chiropractor to death!!

We went over my X-rays yesterday and I was told that my spine looks great! No signs of arthritis and everything looked aligned properly, he said my spine has a perfect curve and the only problems he saw was in one of my lover vertebra, it was slightly tilted and he doesn't believe there is any reason it cant be corrected soon. What a blessing!! I can't even remember the last day i've gone without my back hurting while participating in daily activities!

I'm instructed to sit on ice 2-3 times a day to help the inflammation in the right side of my lower back and to do stretches 2-3 times a day. I have another appointment Thursday and I cant wait to tell him the good news! He's a miracle worker! LOL!

On another happy note, my mister and I are headed to Branson next week!! I've been bugging him for WEEKS to give me some dates so we can go on a trip together before school starts. This will be the first time in the 16 months that we have been dating that we have done something ALONE. Any time we take a trip we always have family with us or Hayden. In fact, this will be the first time that we have ever spent an entire day without one of us working or going to school or having Hayden. I cant wait!!! As much as I love Hayden and our families and am grateful for a good job and the ability to receive an education... I CANT WAIT to have my mister all to myself. It is long overdue and desperately needed!!

Fall classes start in apprx one month and I am SOOOOOOO ready!! I am so excited to get back into the classroom and start on my final 2 years. I'll actually be taking classes that will benefit me in my career and I'll also be in the classroom every Friday observing! And honestly, I'm a bit excited about the fact that i'll only be working weekends! Due to my sporadic and hectic class schedule the next two years I'm only able to work Friday nights through Sunday mornings, thankfully God has provided (as He always does) enough extra money for me to be able to afford to do that... I've always worked 4-6 days a week + being in classes full time... it will be a nice relief and unless I start to get lazy or bored, I plan on sticking to the 3 day work schedule all semester.

I have realized over the past few years of working 30 hours a week and going to school full time that it keeps me on track, it helps keep me motivated and I tend to do better in school (keeping a 3.7 GPA or above). I'm hoping the lax schedule this year wont hinder any of that motivation...

Well here's to the ending of summer rapidly approaching and to a new season of life!!

Summertime and the livings easy...

Ohhh the joys of summer!! Sleeping in, watching movies into ungodly hours of the night, tanning, the lake, pool time, water parks, free time for reading, more time for friends and family, and best of all??? -- NO SCHOOL, NO HOMEWORK, and NO STUDYING!! w00t, w00t!!

I'm sad to say there is only one month left of these glorious lazy days... I will miss getting to spend so much time at my new home with my mister and lil' stink pot. I am however, excited about getting into my last two years of school and my first block of education classes. It's both liberating and terrifying to think that I only have 2 years of school left until I will be pushed into the 'real' world and forced to interact with 'adults'.... blah. Maybe i'll just stay in school forever. Hmmmmm.

Unfortunately I havent taken any awesome summer trips or gone to any cool countries these past two months... I went to Heber for the fourth of July with the mister and his mom and stink pot. We met up with my parents and a couple they are friends with. My parents rented out a 13 person cabin on the little red river with a pool literally in the front yard. It was a blast! Stink pot didn't get out of the pool for more then 20 minutes the WHOLE day! He's such a water baby!!!








My mister and me!!


The bunkhouse we stayed in, it was so comfy!!

April Showers... bring May movers!

Ya know, its not for the lack of something to say that I dont update this blog. It's quite to opposite really... I often have too much to say and don't know how to narrow it down or organize it in a way that would be worth you reading... if 'you' even really exists.

The Spring semester is winding down quickly and i'm welcoming it with open arms! This is my last semester of remedial courses and i just have 2 years left!! I'm so ready to graduate and have my own classroom!!

In other exciting news, the mister and I are moving in May!!! We found an adorable 2 bedroom house in Roland for us and the little munchkin... (who just turned 2 by the way!!) It's both exciting and a bit unnerving to be making such a large leap, in one sense its comforting to feel as though i have another person fighting on my side who lays his head next to me every night. I feel like for so long now i've been fighting the fight on my own... dealing with the stresses of work, school, family, friendships, bills, and money on my own... and its a comforting feeling knowing someone is there to share those stresses with me & someone who is there to help relieve some of those stresses. On another hand its a bit scary to be making this leap... even though I love him as much as I do, it's a big leap that we're making and i'm sure this road will be bumpy at times but we have faith in our love and hopefully the common sense to know when we should keep our mouths shut. =-)

I'll make sure to put up some pics of our cute home when we get settled in!

Much love,
xoxoxo